I want to talk to him so bad because he knows my struggles and everything about me and understands but I have to leave him alone and it's hard but I won't be the person who turned him away and then comes back for when I need somebody, and it's just easier to go to him. I won't
Growing up with parents who abandoned him at an early age certainly colored him as a person. It did not help that his therapist at psychiatric was anything but nice to him. Though he wanted someone to notice and care for him, the very concepts scared him. He would not risk more abandonment and abuse.