;( I want to tell my parents how lonely, sad, and how bad it is getting, but I can't. They will hate me. Everyone hates me. People on IG tell me to go kill myself and tell me that I should cut. I don't cut....at all, but lately I've been thinking about it. I have no friends. I get made fun of. I hate to eat, because I am too fat. (100 pounds) Ugh! I hate myself!
I know... My step dad died in 2012 just after a big fight we had had that had been going on for about 6 months.....the second he died I felt numb ... I thought maybe if I just pretended it had not happened he would just come back... He obviously never did... But it took me months to face the facts and when I did I just lost it... I whent through 8 months of very hard depression and axiouty . And then I have been in 2 treat ment facility's for 4 weeks in all.I'm learning and growing tho..