To be ill adjusted to a deranged world is not a breakdown. It's ok if you're not perfect in this very imperfect world.
"I have noticed that when all the lights are on, people tend to talk about what they are doing - their outer lives. Sitting round in candlelight or firelight, people start to talk about how they are feeling - their inner lives. They speak subjectively, they argue less, there are longer pauses..." ~ Jeanette Winterson